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Monday, November 21, 2005
back from bangkok!
overall it was pretty ok.. went with the main purpose of shopping but didn't manage to get much. guess bangkok has changed a lot for the worse, in terms of goods AND service.
let's see. managed to get a notebook (which can't open, incidentally), a pair of slippers (:, dress sandals (:, converse sneakers (i found the exact same pair at tampines mall and they were almost the same price!! darn. should have boosted my own economy), a pair of earrings (which were quite ex, come to think of it!!), a plate with a photo of my daddy and me (:, a belt, a bracelet (:, a letterholder, a lipstick holder for mummy (: and a pack of biscuits S: (hahaha. couldn't resist. they were chocolate and strawberry so the colour combi was pretty).
yeah bangkok the shopping paradise is written in the pages of history.
the clothes were... well. not very nice. quite colourful and loud, heh. the salespeople have changed a lot. the stallholders at the roadside stalls were very rude. my daddy had to yell at a woman because she hit my hands away off her goods when i wanted to look at a wallet. S: the salespeople at the mall were really arrogant too. and the things from the mall were ex, even some stuff from roadside stalls too! wanted to get a small silver ring from a roadside stall in pratunam, and the opening price was 500 baht. that's more than 20 dollars! i doubt that i can bring it down to 150 baht. that's about 7 dollars. and 7 isn't that cheap either. so you get what i mean.
i was kind of disappointed because this doesn't seem like the same bangkok that i've known and loved.
but the thai oil message at the hotel rocks my socks!! haha i went for the first time. it was really relaxing. but at some parts i felt much too violated for comfort. hm. well all i can say is thank goodness the masseur was a female.
piano lesson yesterday was great. my piano teacher, andy chia, is the same guy who *tried* (but failed miserably) to teach me melodic dictation for mep last year. he's really young and nice, so that makes lessons more comfortable i guess. well he seems to have let bygones be bygones, considering the way i was treating him last year ie. a real pain in the neck. well it's not my fault, i hated what he was teaching me!! when melodic dictation sucks, you kind of assume very conveniently the teacher does too. i think that's kind of scientifically proven, because i always treat my english teachers better than my math teachers. (: yes the first thing he said was "so we meet again" and managed to look pleased. give the guy an oscar! but he plays the piano beautifully, teaches just as well, so i hope i actually pick something up. (:
spent the rest of the afternoons tagging along to look at cars. and i skipped physics tuition for that. what a bore. S:
yeps harry potter and the goblet of fire!! the string ensemble will be watching that on wednesday with mr sze.. lyndsey said that the outing was his idea!! woah. conductor and fellow harry potter fan all rolled into one. as harry potter would say: excellent.
ogl meeting tomorrow. :S my whole week is filled with strings + ogl + ride for hope stuff. sigh shopping at taka will have to wait. i wanna see my ah ma!! soon i hope.
watch the mtv for let me go by 3 doors down!! it rocks.
"there's not a day that passes by [when] i don't wonder why we haven't tried, it's not too late to change your mind. baby take my hand, don't say goodbye. i will love you more than that, i won't say the words then take them back. don't give loneliness a chance. baby listen to me when i say, i will love you more than that." -more than that by the backstreet boys. found the score when i was digging through my collection of pop piano books. (:
overall it was pretty ok.. went with the main purpose of shopping but didn't manage to get much. guess bangkok has changed a lot for the worse, in terms of goods AND service.
let's see. managed to get a notebook (which can't open, incidentally), a pair of slippers (:, dress sandals (:, converse sneakers (i found the exact same pair at tampines mall and they were almost the same price!! darn. should have boosted my own economy), a pair of earrings (which were quite ex, come to think of it!!), a plate with a photo of my daddy and me (:, a belt, a bracelet (:, a letterholder, a lipstick holder for mummy (: and a pack of biscuits S: (hahaha. couldn't resist. they were chocolate and strawberry so the colour combi was pretty).
yeah bangkok the shopping paradise is written in the pages of history.
the clothes were... well. not very nice. quite colourful and loud, heh. the salespeople have changed a lot. the stallholders at the roadside stalls were very rude. my daddy had to yell at a woman because she hit my hands away off her goods when i wanted to look at a wallet. S: the salespeople at the mall were really arrogant too. and the things from the mall were ex, even some stuff from roadside stalls too! wanted to get a small silver ring from a roadside stall in pratunam, and the opening price was 500 baht. that's more than 20 dollars! i doubt that i can bring it down to 150 baht. that's about 7 dollars. and 7 isn't that cheap either. so you get what i mean.
i was kind of disappointed because this doesn't seem like the same bangkok that i've known and loved.
but the thai oil message at the hotel rocks my socks!! haha i went for the first time. it was really relaxing. but at some parts i felt much too violated for comfort. hm. well all i can say is thank goodness the masseur was a female.
piano lesson yesterday was great. my piano teacher, andy chia, is the same guy who *tried* (but failed miserably) to teach me melodic dictation for mep last year. he's really young and nice, so that makes lessons more comfortable i guess. well he seems to have let bygones be bygones, considering the way i was treating him last year ie. a real pain in the neck. well it's not my fault, i hated what he was teaching me!! when melodic dictation sucks, you kind of assume very conveniently the teacher does too. i think that's kind of scientifically proven, because i always treat my english teachers better than my math teachers. (: yes the first thing he said was "so we meet again" and managed to look pleased. give the guy an oscar! but he plays the piano beautifully, teaches just as well, so i hope i actually pick something up. (:
spent the rest of the afternoons tagging along to look at cars. and i skipped physics tuition for that. what a bore. S:
yeps harry potter and the goblet of fire!! the string ensemble will be watching that on wednesday with mr sze.. lyndsey said that the outing was his idea!! woah. conductor and fellow harry potter fan all rolled into one. as harry potter would say: excellent.
ogl meeting tomorrow. :S my whole week is filled with strings + ogl + ride for hope stuff. sigh shopping at taka will have to wait. i wanna see my ah ma!! soon i hope.
watch the mtv for let me go by 3 doors down!! it rocks.
"there's not a day that passes by [when] i don't wonder why we haven't tried, it's not too late to change your mind. baby take my hand, don't say goodbye. i will love you more than that, i won't say the words then take them back. don't give loneliness a chance. baby listen to me when i say, i will love you more than that." -more than that by the backstreet boys. found the score when i was digging through my collection of pop piano books. (:
Monday, November 14, 2005
now that school's out, i can safely say that i have survived jc1. alright!
i spent an indecent amount of time uploading my photos! the result: four new photo albums. go check them out!
we have a new strings conductor! mr trevor sze. he worked wonders for raffless institution and nanyang girls' high.. so our future looks bright. yep. we had a saturday practice with him. it seems like we're going to have a whole new repetoire, which is crucial because we are dying of boredom. that's what happens when you're at the mercy of the very limited school music collection, with holes in them courtesy of the silverfish residents of the music room. :S mr sze seems nice enough if disciplinary problems are absent, so strings next year will probably be much better. i felt all those long-forgotten skills i'd picked from raffles strings coming back. like sitting straight at the edge of your chair, breathing as an ensemble.. all those good habits that were conveniently lost to an extremely slack ensemble. i'm not trying to push the blame here, because it's entirely my fault for not practising those crucial habits, but mr sze did bring me a very nostalgic feeling. (:
oh yeah, i better start practising violin a little more. the tough skin on my left fingers are non-existent, now that violin exams are behind me. and at first, even tuning the instrument felt slightly foreign to me. heh. i need to get back into the strings mood! desperately. :S piano lesson this sunday! i'm feeling quite excited because i haven't had a decent piano lesson in ages!! i need to get rid of those annoying habits that are accumulated from being self-taught for too long.
yes now that pw is over, i have nothing to live for. holidays are boring with so few holiday assignments. i guess even orchard road might start to lose its charm if it's frequented too often, so i better find something meaningful to do! probably a few visits to the library will do the trick. which reminds me, the library fine that junkiat accumulated so kindly for me has not been paid. >.< i feel like getting some stars to fold. and cross-stiching designs too. (: whee.
it's lyndsey's and aaron's birthday today, and waiyen's and claire's birthdays are coming up! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GUYS!
so many movies to watch, and so little time. the following movies have been shortlisted for my potential viewing pleasure. in order of merit: harry potter and the goblet of fire, memoirs of a geisha, the choronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe, the da vinci code, casanova, sky high. woo. memoirs of a geisha is so so good, it's probably my favourite book of all time. thanks clara for lending it to me!! now that the movie's going to be out, i wouldn't miss it for the world! i'm just worried that the rating might be m18. if the director stays true to the book, i wouldn't be surprised if it is. but still, i hope it scraps through with an nc16 or something. :S haiz.
i want to borrow the exorcist on dvd. one of the scariest movies of all time! i get really freaked out and get loads of nightmares after watching horror movies, but what can i say. i'm a masochist. :D
i'll be going on a short shopping + eating trip to bangkok from tomorrow till friday. whee!! shopping paradise. so i'm going to miss math lecture tomorrow (: and strings prac on friday ):
something i got off lyndsey's blog:
Your Life Analysis:
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is reasonably high. This means that you are on a good path. Continue doing what is working and set about to improve in areas which continue to lag. Do this starting today and you will begin to reap the benefits immediately.
Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is within a healthy zone. This means you have achieved a level of mental balance and harmony consistent with living a healthy, happy life. Continue doing what works, and keep your focus. In our fast-paced world, mental clutter is all too common. Be vigilant in maintaining healthy mental function.
Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong.
Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow.
Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.
Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope.
Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did.
the analysis seems rather.. well, comical. >.<
"think of me. think of me waking, silent and resigned. imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind. recall those days, look back on all those times, think of the things we'll never do. there will never be a day when I won't think of you." -think of me. my favourite phantom of the opera song. (:
i spent an indecent amount of time uploading my photos! the result: four new photo albums. go check them out!
we have a new strings conductor! mr trevor sze. he worked wonders for raffless institution and nanyang girls' high.. so our future looks bright. yep. we had a saturday practice with him. it seems like we're going to have a whole new repetoire, which is crucial because we are dying of boredom. that's what happens when you're at the mercy of the very limited school music collection, with holes in them courtesy of the silverfish residents of the music room. :S mr sze seems nice enough if disciplinary problems are absent, so strings next year will probably be much better. i felt all those long-forgotten skills i'd picked from raffles strings coming back. like sitting straight at the edge of your chair, breathing as an ensemble.. all those good habits that were conveniently lost to an extremely slack ensemble. i'm not trying to push the blame here, because it's entirely my fault for not practising those crucial habits, but mr sze did bring me a very nostalgic feeling. (:
oh yeah, i better start practising violin a little more. the tough skin on my left fingers are non-existent, now that violin exams are behind me. and at first, even tuning the instrument felt slightly foreign to me. heh. i need to get back into the strings mood! desperately. :S piano lesson this sunday! i'm feeling quite excited because i haven't had a decent piano lesson in ages!! i need to get rid of those annoying habits that are accumulated from being self-taught for too long.
yes now that pw is over, i have nothing to live for. holidays are boring with so few holiday assignments. i guess even orchard road might start to lose its charm if it's frequented too often, so i better find something meaningful to do! probably a few visits to the library will do the trick. which reminds me, the library fine that junkiat accumulated so kindly for me has not been paid. >.< i feel like getting some stars to fold. and cross-stiching designs too. (: whee.
it's lyndsey's and aaron's birthday today, and waiyen's and claire's birthdays are coming up! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GUYS!
so many movies to watch, and so little time. the following movies have been shortlisted for my potential viewing pleasure. in order of merit: harry potter and the goblet of fire, memoirs of a geisha, the choronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe, the da vinci code, casanova, sky high. woo. memoirs of a geisha is so so good, it's probably my favourite book of all time. thanks clara for lending it to me!! now that the movie's going to be out, i wouldn't miss it for the world! i'm just worried that the rating might be m18. if the director stays true to the book, i wouldn't be surprised if it is. but still, i hope it scraps through with an nc16 or something. :S haiz.
i want to borrow the exorcist on dvd. one of the scariest movies of all time! i get really freaked out and get loads of nightmares after watching horror movies, but what can i say. i'm a masochist. :D
i'll be going on a short shopping + eating trip to bangkok from tomorrow till friday. whee!! shopping paradise. so i'm going to miss math lecture tomorrow (: and strings prac on friday ):
something i got off lyndsey's blog:
| This Is My Life, Rated | |
| Life: |  7.8 |
| Mind: |  7.1 |
| Body: |  8.4 |
| Spirit: | 7.1 |
| Friends/Family: |  6 |
| Love: |  2.9 |
| Finance: | 6.8 |
| Take the Rate My Life Quiz | |
Your Life Analysis:
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is reasonably high. This means that you are on a good path. Continue doing what is working and set about to improve in areas which continue to lag. Do this starting today and you will begin to reap the benefits immediately.
Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is within a healthy zone. This means you have achieved a level of mental balance and harmony consistent with living a healthy, happy life. Continue doing what works, and keep your focus. In our fast-paced world, mental clutter is all too common. Be vigilant in maintaining healthy mental function.
Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong.
Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow.
Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.
Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope.
Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did.
the analysis seems rather.. well, comical. >.<
"think of me. think of me waking, silent and resigned. imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind. recall those days, look back on all those times, think of the things we'll never do. there will never be a day when I won't think of you." -think of me. my favourite phantom of the opera song. (:
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
and if i did not muck up on both saturday and today, chinese and theory are history. woo-wee.
yes saturday was my grade 8 theory exam. today was my chinese ao level exam. two very important mile-stones in my life in such close proximity! One marks the end of my music theory (which admittedly was taking over my life at some point) and the other marks the end of my official chinese education. yes i am going to drop chinese regardless of my pass grade. being very optimistic here but i AM gonna pass and you better believe it. if i say it enough, i might actually start believing it myself.
i am gonna pass chinese. i am gonna pass chinese. i AM gonna pass chinese. yes.
but i am more worried about music. ): 7 months isn't really enough preparation time for one grade, considering i went for my grade 7 theory in march. oh man i really hope i pass. the paper wasn't horrendously difficult, but it wasn't what any would call easy either. i'm estimating a borderline.. if so, please let my grades be on the correct side of the borderline. i'm treading on very dangerous ground here.
argh whatever. if i do fail i'll just take the exam again in march. no biggie.
)':
no i don't actually believe that.
well needless to say, i didn't study much for chinese. i spent almost the entire week mugging for theory. especially the foreign words section. and none of the foreign words came out. besides corno inglese, but i didn't need to study that to know it was cor anglais. i bet nobody does. i feel cheated, really. but thank goodness there wasn't much to study anyway. out of the lists and lists of millions of chinese phrases, a grand total of two came out. seriously. :S
and the chinese invigilators took an awfully time to count the scripts after the exam! close to half an hour. argh.
i felt really liberated today. the only thing stopping me from incinerating all my chinese books was project work. we tried working out the kinks but mathew and junkiat had to leave early for cross country and basketball training respectively, so woonie and sherli and i wound up watching view from the top with ashwin and zhixue and weisheng. well maybe zhixue and weisheng and i ARE in a party mood after chinese ao. heh. the movie was nice, heart-warming, unrealistic, idealistic and characteristically bimbotic. filled with eye-candy too. think air stewardesses and gwyneth paltrow. (: but it was really fun.
tomorrow is project work again. at woonie's house. i can hardly wait. no that wasn't sarcastic i seriously love project work. helps that my group rocks, of course. yeah.
yuewoon, sherli, mathew, junkiat, you guys ROCK!
haha. you really do. <3
alright, gotta go sleep now or i'll be falling asleep over woonie tomorrow. she introduced me this really nice song!! got none by robert post. the video was really.. interesting. slightly corny the first time round, but the more you watch it, the more hidden meanings there are. maybe we are reading too much into the video but it really does have some subtle references to the song. (: which incidentally is realistic and actually quite sad. robert post's voice is good too, very mournful. perfect. (:
"when i was a little boy i used to wonder, just how old you'd have to be to feel good. now i've seen a thousand girls but i still wonder, cuz they just don't make sense to me. god knows i've tried.
i've tried to be the unpredictable one. i've tried to be the friend that they could rely on. i've still got none, got nothing at all.
and so i fall into the open, just singing out your name. and when I'm done, crashed and maimed. i hope that's where you'll find me.
you know that if it's up to me i'll still be holding, my own hand the day I die. so please release me now.
i've tried to be the mean mysterious one. i've tried to be the sweetest candy you'd suck on. i've still got none, got nothing at all.
and it's a good day for being found. just crawling in the dirt with my head underground. and it's a good day for you to come, collecting all the pieces of the damage done.
and after all the bandages are gone, i hope you'll find a favorite part you can work on. cuz I've got none, got nothing at all."
robert post - got none.
yuewoon's and my favourite song! sad realistic lyrics. (:
yes saturday was my grade 8 theory exam. today was my chinese ao level exam. two very important mile-stones in my life in such close proximity! One marks the end of my music theory (which admittedly was taking over my life at some point) and the other marks the end of my official chinese education. yes i am going to drop chinese regardless of my pass grade. being very optimistic here but i AM gonna pass and you better believe it. if i say it enough, i might actually start believing it myself.
i am gonna pass chinese. i am gonna pass chinese. i AM gonna pass chinese. yes.
but i am more worried about music. ): 7 months isn't really enough preparation time for one grade, considering i went for my grade 7 theory in march. oh man i really hope i pass. the paper wasn't horrendously difficult, but it wasn't what any would call easy either. i'm estimating a borderline.. if so, please let my grades be on the correct side of the borderline. i'm treading on very dangerous ground here.
argh whatever. if i do fail i'll just take the exam again in march. no biggie.
)':
no i don't actually believe that.
well needless to say, i didn't study much for chinese. i spent almost the entire week mugging for theory. especially the foreign words section. and none of the foreign words came out. besides corno inglese, but i didn't need to study that to know it was cor anglais. i bet nobody does. i feel cheated, really. but thank goodness there wasn't much to study anyway. out of the lists and lists of millions of chinese phrases, a grand total of two came out. seriously. :S
and the chinese invigilators took an awfully time to count the scripts after the exam! close to half an hour. argh.
i felt really liberated today. the only thing stopping me from incinerating all my chinese books was project work. we tried working out the kinks but mathew and junkiat had to leave early for cross country and basketball training respectively, so woonie and sherli and i wound up watching view from the top with ashwin and zhixue and weisheng. well maybe zhixue and weisheng and i ARE in a party mood after chinese ao. heh. the movie was nice, heart-warming, unrealistic, idealistic and characteristically bimbotic. filled with eye-candy too. think air stewardesses and gwyneth paltrow. (: but it was really fun.
tomorrow is project work again. at woonie's house. i can hardly wait. no that wasn't sarcastic i seriously love project work. helps that my group rocks, of course. yeah.
yuewoon, sherli, mathew, junkiat, you guys ROCK!
haha. you really do. <3
alright, gotta go sleep now or i'll be falling asleep over woonie tomorrow. she introduced me this really nice song!! got none by robert post. the video was really.. interesting. slightly corny the first time round, but the more you watch it, the more hidden meanings there are. maybe we are reading too much into the video but it really does have some subtle references to the song. (: which incidentally is realistic and actually quite sad. robert post's voice is good too, very mournful. perfect. (:
"when i was a little boy i used to wonder, just how old you'd have to be to feel good. now i've seen a thousand girls but i still wonder, cuz they just don't make sense to me. god knows i've tried.
i've tried to be the unpredictable one. i've tried to be the friend that they could rely on. i've still got none, got nothing at all.
and so i fall into the open, just singing out your name. and when I'm done, crashed and maimed. i hope that's where you'll find me.
you know that if it's up to me i'll still be holding, my own hand the day I die. so please release me now.
i've tried to be the mean mysterious one. i've tried to be the sweetest candy you'd suck on. i've still got none, got nothing at all.
and it's a good day for being found. just crawling in the dirt with my head underground. and it's a good day for you to come, collecting all the pieces of the damage done.
and after all the bandages are gone, i hope you'll find a favorite part you can work on. cuz I've got none, got nothing at all."
robert post - got none.
yuewoon's and my favourite song! sad realistic lyrics. (: